I see hundreds of people every day, I should I live in a city, but every once in a while I'll come across a person...this is an interesting thing since I can see them coming. It's like everyone is in black and white but some people are just in color, you look at them and you know they're different, there is more to them then just what you see.

today i met such a person, interestingly enough this time it was someone i already knew, Adrienne Shurte. About 7 years ago she and i went to school together and she was one of the few classmates i had respect for. I'm not entirely certain how to feel about meeting her again after all this time, I'm pleased to see her and here she's in the area and i might see her again, but at the same time I'm disappointed. You see, the reason a person is special varies, but with Adrienne it was her wings...whenever i saw her it felt as if she was ready to fly somewhere far away to a happier place and she seemed to hate where she was and refused to be held down to it. of all the people i knew 7 years ago there wasn't one of them i expected to see again LESS then Adrienne, she was supposed to be gone, to have flown away somewhere better. seeing her here in Richmond means that either she found something worth staying for, or that she never got what she was reaching for...it's disappointing to think that the person i thought would fly the farthest may have been stopped short.

it also makes me wonder how far i've come since then towards the dreams i had, and makes me feel i've come up short as well. we all have dreams, however impractical they might be, i don't regret most of the things i have achieved, but i feel like i may have neglected many of the things that i wanted to do and be...perhaps that's just part of life, but i sometimes feel that if who i was met who i am they would feel i wasn't worth the pain it took to get me here. our lives are so short that we can never see all our dreams come to pass, but perhaps it is acceptance of this fact that make our dreams so hard to reach...